Yesterday was a day of reflection for me, remembering memories and feelings from 15 years ago. The attacks on 9/11 punctuated my soul and heart, and in moving through all of that, I re-found this post I did. The desire to love still speaks to me even though I recognize the naivety of my younger self. I am still moved.
I hope it is moving for you too.
I Don’t Want To Be Okay
I don’t want to feel better about the world or myself after September 11th. I don’t want to go back to my “normal” routine as a passive player in the world…my job, my daily commute…my armchair perspective of the world.
I don’t want to be okay because I am being told that I should “go back to normal.” I feel like I am being told to forget and pretend that everything is all right. Too much is still wrong; it is still too painful for me to just ignore.